5 Things I've Learned In The Past Month

No matter how much I may hate drama, it always seems to rear its head at me in some way. But what's life without internal conflict and turmoil?

It's been roughly a month of singularity, mixed feelings, and soul searching. I've tried keeping up that relationship with myself by making decisions that are best for me, and let me tell ya, it is not easy. With graduation rushing to me, waiting on an Honors Diploma that I've worked hard for through tears and anxiety, my heart has gotten in the way a few times.

I went on a date in the midst of a nice week with a nice person, but things didn't pan out, and it was for the best.

I've had the past race up to me, with albums full of memories I've tried to keep locked away.

It's been a struggle to not be impulsive, or not immediately act on the feelings I have. I've learned a lot through the hurt, the happiness, and the overthinking. So here are the five things I've learned this past month :

1. Don't let living for yourself become riddled with exceptions to avoid hurting others. The only person who will continuously live for you throughout your life, is yourself. You can't control what other people feel, and they can't control you, so long as you don't allow them to.

2. Don't be blind to the obvious! You can only give the benefit of the doubt for so long before you know it's pointless. You can't fix stupid.

3. Life is too short to regret the things in the past. Don't allow yourself to hold on so tightly to the past that the future never comes within eyesight of you. If it is meant to be, IT WILL HAPPEN.

4. Be bluntly honest with yourself. You know you better than anyone. You will know when you are ready for new love, but know when you aren't. Don't rush into things when you know the past can still compromise your happiness. Make your way to where you are independent of the past, accepting of things you cannot control, and live the right way when the time is right.

5. TAKE. YOUR. TIME. Slow down for your own sake! You have time! Don't rush into what you know you aren't ready for. Make sure your decisions, and your thoughts are rational, and not dangerously impulsive. You have all the time in the world, but be sure you don't wait for the life to come to you. Make life your own within your own time management.

You will be okay. Time doesn't heal all wounds; you do. Time is just an aide. It doesn't do all the work for you. Learn from what time, and experience has given you. Be able to say you've learned from the past, so now you can live in the present moment.