It's Only Been A Week???
It's been about eight days since I became single... every time I remind myself of this, it feels like it's a lie. It has honestly felt like it has been months! This comes from the countless emotions, mood swings, and perceptions that I've experienced. One day I could be happy, and on top of the world; the next day I could be hung up on someone and balling my eyes out over ice cream. Then I'm just reminding myself over and over again that I have to take care of myself. I have to take care of myself.
I. Have. To. Take. Care. Of. Myself.
One moment I can't wait to meet someone.
The next moment I'm reciting "I AM AN INDEPENDENT WOMAN WHO DON'T NEED NO MAN!!"
Unfortunately, my mind just works this way, and it has tricked me time and time again to think months have passed.
I've failed to make a habit of being in the moment; of being present. My goal this entire time has been to continuously work on myself, to work towards being happy single and independent. But it seems that I always circle back to what I want, instead of remaining on what I need.
Even though I never had a relationship until my sophomore year of high school, those 14 years of being single feel non-existent. It's like I've forgotten how to be single, and I keep falling into the trap of feeling that I need a relationship to be happy.
Once I find my solace in being solely by myself, I'll know when I'm ready to welcome someone else into my life,
